à jamais

2010-07-02T23:16:00.002+08:00

macaroons !
so delicious.
so pricey.

i'm in deep thoughts.

2010-06-20T20:13:00.003+08:00

hey hi yo. decided to keep this place alive so i'm gonna turn this place into a photo gallery or whatever you call it. i'm still blogging at declove.wordpress.com don't forget to visit there okay? love you guys(i know i don't have many readers:( )

you're all i'm thinking about:/

2010-05-30T23:40:00.002+08:00

i want to say those words to you but how?
what if they were left unspoken?
well it's okay,
cause you don't know me anyway.
so i've got a reason...
imysfmtintsybbihaffy!

woah it's scary to know how many times certain people viewed your blog....

2010-05-30T20:23:00.003+08:00

so yeah, it kinda shock me but i expected it. okay i'm being ironic here.

mm so i'm leaving this place soon. as in my blog. yeah gonna move on to somewhere else which currently i've no idea where yet. so yup yup guess it will take some days for me to think of a new url, blogskin and everything. mehhhh so lazy so lazy.

OH faithyyy all the best for tomorrow's o'level chinese!
jia you! jia you! a1 a1 a1 darling! :D

2010-05-28T17:44:00.001+08:00

i know i can.....
i know i can....
i know i can...
i know i can..
i know i can.
i know i can!

:)

2010-05-27T18:45:00.002+08:00

recently i lost my appetite and i get tired real easily.
oh gosh, next two weeks of extended school is hectic. school is 8am-6pm everyday! this is gonna make things worse since recently my appetite is really bad. practically i only take one meal per day. i love food but i just don't have the faintest idea what is wrong with me. oh well today is slightly better since i ate pizza hut with faith and one of her friend but...i did not finish my pasta. haha i thought the pasta was too salty. lmao.

okay for now i'm too busy to think of anything. i needa complete my art! 3 layouts 3 layouts! i am calling for you. i'm a sucker for ideas. this is why i would rather sketch. i needa move forward forward forward! haiz. when can i see the "rainbow" again? hmm

2010-05-26T19:47:00.001+08:00

well i'm back!

hibyemyl0velieszx

2010-05-19T22:17:00.002+08:00

hmm so the results were pretty scary. the papers received back today were
-poa, maths, chinese, english.
mf-ing disappointing you know! yeah except for maths which i did okay for it and i'm satisfied. chinese was a like slap in my face 34.5/70 for paper 2 wtf why can't liang yan pass me? well whole class failed for paper2 anyway. overall i passed but still i failed chinese paper2 for the first time. yeah mf-ing hell. i need a tutor i swear. poa is not worth mentioning. i've never gotten below an A for poa and now i broke my own record. thank you. english was not too bad. oh well whole class failed ss, i heard. so my one week for ss was wasted. _|_ tomorrow we shall see. hmm

i'm over m! i'm over m! i am over you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! maybe not. who knows i might just skipped a heartbeat when i see you on bus tomorrow. cheyyyyyyy. i won't i won't :x

modayblues

2010-05-16T21:29:00.002+08:00

i want to see you tomorrow so i pray that you don't miss the bus:)

so outing with buds was awesome yesterday. photos with denise so i'll post it here when she has uploaded it on facebook. can't exactly remember what we did yesterday but i know my dressing was horrible! yes, i have invested too much on accessories and now i'm running out of apparels. did i mention that i've ordered 3 rings at one go online? yeah, i just mentioned it here. my babies are arriving tomorrow! i think... HAHA

till here.

iamfeelingmiserable.

2010-05-16T00:06:00.003+08:00

i am resisting the temptations of 小笼包, 锅贴 and 鲁肉饭. my mother's fault. for no rhyme and reason went to buy back the taiwan food. OMGOD i am on a major diet! why is she doing this to me?!?!??! and i am so hungry now... there are two packets of 小笼包. walaooooooo:( i am so sad to be on diet. nvm i will think of M and i'll be happier. yup yup. mmmmmmmmm

2010-05-13T21:26:00.002+08:00

mid year's finally over! my goodness, i feel the joy.hahahaha. right i'm thinking where have all my readers gone to? its just so sad that no one is reading this site anymore. hmmm i guess i will reconstruct my blog soon when i have the time. meanwhile it will be like this. plain and simple. hmmm.

hmm so does a guy mind the girl older than him?
yk: yes

T.T

2010-05-12T11:19:00.003+08:00

i love that flatten hair of yours.
it's just too cute to resist.
and that innocent expression.
why are you so cute? hahaha

2010-05-11T22:06:00.002+08:00

i had a dream about you. i can't figure out the meaning of it. whenever i dream of something, it will be the opposite. true enough, i dreamt that i saw you on the bus today and today i didn't see you. so what is the meaning of the dream? crap.

i am obsessed with....

2010-05-07T23:49:00.002+08:00

SONGS.

HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

2010-05-06T21:10:00.002+08:00

i like you and i don't care about the fact that you're one year younger than me. it's 21st century suckers.

2010-05-03T14:48:00.003+08:00

hi i miss you. what should i do?

okay ss is killing me. i'm done with chapter 6 and now chapter 3 is on the way. holy mother god i pray to you that chapter 3 or 6 will come out tomorrow. pls don't do this to me. ty and i love you ss.

“Hate is too great a burden to bear. It injures the hater more than it injures the hated.”

2010-04-27T19:19:00.000+08:00

oh how true can it get?

jealousy kills.

2010-04-24T21:01:00.003+08:00

i have decided to end everything. i won't care anymore. i never had a true one by my side before anw. i don't know whether is it me thinking too much or what but i just felt something is different. i don't feel welcome. maybe jealousy kills? i think that's the reason. i swallowed everything down. i pretend. and i will continue to pretend. i'll keep pretending till i'm finally out of there. sometimes pretending that everything's that is going on is fine makes me feel better. maybe i should pretend more. pretend not to hear. pretend not to know that my existence is not important. pretend a smile even when i'm at my worst. pretend that i'm not hurt when deep down i'm about to die.

yeah don't dwell into this post. don't assume that i'm referring to whatever you're thinking. no one reads my blog anymore anyway so it doesn't really matter. im just pouring out whatever that has been kept inside my heart for quite some time. not trying to stir up problems or anything. i just don't bother anymore.

now i understand how she feels.

2010-04-23T21:23:00.003+08:00

hi i flunk my chinese oral exam. wtf.
less than 2 weeks to mid year. like why is the time passing so quickly?!? kay whatever so i've came to a realisation. i've not touched my books at all and how am i supposed to squeeze every single facts into my brain? not worried about maths, science or whatever. i'm just so worried about SOCIAL STUDIES. i can't do ss for nuts. i'm gonna flunk it but i'll try my best to pass it. ohh wait my literature is horrible too. i can't relate at all. i got the lowest for one of the lit test. fml man. combined humanities is my ultimate weakness. oh fuck! great great great. i am off to complete all my homework and shall do some ss revision. FINALLY.

bye nuttyheads.

p.s/ i feel so sad, no one leaves a question or so at my formspring.no readers! no readers! T.T

BYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

2010-04-18T20:42:00.002+08:00

so i created a formspring account for fun so to see if there's any anonymous reading my blog cos if there is, they might ask me questions. HAHAHHAH. so go on and ask me questions. i will answer any type. HAHAH

2010-04-17T20:44:00.002+08:00

hi it's april 17 and i hate to say this but mid year is in 2 weeks time(approximately) all i did was slacking and more slacking. i am such a failure. i have decided that i need to do my art layouts by today since i spent the whole entire night(last night) thinking about it and i thought the idea was pretty plain, rubbish and meaningless. guess i have to crap some explanation for my masterpiece. ya wtf i'm gonna paint that and i'm using impressionism style so i don't have to do extreme detailing. i will die a horrible death if i do realism. i'll get a f9 back. so basically i will complete my art and fuck i just remembered that i have 5 a3 to deal with.(mid-year) i have yet to choose the topic. omgod fml man. okay i have predicted that i will flunk my mid year and i will work harder for n and o level. not too bad i guess so i'm off to draw my ideas now and i hope i'll succeed. pray for me thank you. and i wonder who is reading this whole chunk of crap. like nobody except myself and still myself. boohoo bye.

omgod, why are you so cute???
hoho what a question.

happy16thbirthdaytome

2010-04-13T21:17:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to me!
i'm finally 16. woots.

okay so i think i've got a lot to type. no pictures because i hate my face today:P and this is my most memorable birthday ever? currently yes. hahaha so i shall thank everyone that have wished me and many thanks to those who got me presents. i love every single thing i've received today. i shall name it all out here.

thank you,
Yeon jae for the doraemon light thingy. i love it! :)
Cheong!(shi min) for the necklace and yoghurt bar. lubszxz
Alicia for the drumsticks! perfect cos i was gonna get one:D
Carissa and Rebecca for the diy mug. i love it and the card is awesome, curry!
Denise for the bunny balloon and chace crawford card. i love it darling! :D
Joni and lily for the accessories. i will wear it for sure:)
Jasmin and Yang kai for the small slice of chocolate cake!( yk told me to jian fei:( ) i can't eat it cos i'm sick but at least i took a small bite and you guys really surprised me during physics lesson by bringing in the cake and everyone singing the birthday song for me. damn touched:)

my mum and grandma for the red packets(i'm rich! yahoo!) and the lovely ice cream cake from my brother.

and big thank you to everyone who have wished me at facebook, msn or handphone. and Chen yang, you're the first to wish me again! damn guilty cos i forgot about your birthday yet you remembered mine. :/ xie xie ni.

ohhh lastly i shall thank the people who are giving me belated birthday present in advance. THANK YOU! i feel so loved. :D

p.s every card i received was written in orange. hahaha

2010-04-10T16:59:00.000+08:00

Missing someone gets easier every day because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time you will.

i can't figure out the 'you' that i'm missing now.

2010-04-10T12:28:00.004+08:00

2010-04-07T21:16:00.001+08:00

who will be by my side when i cry?

2010-04-03T13:09:00.002+08:00

i'm happy when i see you.
i'm happy when i hear your voice.
i'm happy when you talk to me.
i'm happy when i think about you.
i'm happy because of you.

co

2010-03-28T00:46:00.002+08:00

today's the last full orchestra for the sec4s. few months back then i was dying to stand down. i really disliked co and now here i am typing one post specially dedicated to co. i really love this cca of mine although i always complained about it. the conductor, the timing and everything. when they announced that today's the last practice, somehow i felt reluctant to stand down. i wanna continue to attend but i know that's not possible since exams are all coming. today's also the day i officially stand down as a sectional leader. it's been two years and though i hated the job but i've grown feelings for it. sounds really dumb but its true. i will miss my sl post, percussion, my juniors, bickers with the conductor, my instructor and of cos the whole orchestra. ohh well and i'm really upset. i am dying to go for the shanghai trip but it's on sep where i'm having exams. really upset about it. it's a trip with the orchestra and of cos percussion definitely will go. how sad...i can't join them. oh man i love co forever and always. xoxo

recent.

2010-03-20T21:22:00.004+08:00

band concert(18/3/10)
there to support shazzy;)

was my make up too thick?? hmm...

adam lambert's autograph session and Carnival(13/3/10)

right there you go. just uploaded some pictures to brighten up my 'about to rot' blog. :) well so cha.

idreamtofyouyesterdayandthedaybefore.

2010-03-19T12:33:00.001+08:00

i know it's not a wise decision
but i can't help it.

2010-03-17T21:03:00.001+08:00

i want to talk to you. i want to text you. i want to see you.

ican'tbelievemyluckischanging

2010-03-13T22:14:00.003+08:00

omg fucking amazing i tell you! i think my luck is changing. so denise and i rushed down to bugis junction for adam lambert's autograph session. we reached around 3 plus and the queue was fucking long man. like omgod? so we decided to give up queuing and just stand near the barrier. OMG we were so lucky. we were quite near and screaming like some nut case. took lotsa pictures too but not very clear :( so we stood from 3-5pm around there. constantly shouting and screaming then we noticed that the queue was getting shorter and shorter so we decided to queue. denise was actually hesitating but a lady told us to try our luck since they extended the signing for 10 mins. so we queued and GOT THE AUTOGRAPH! i was freaking near adam lambert. like one arm's length????so when i got onto the stage, i couldn't resist shouting so i shouted 'i love you adam!' AND OMG he actually looked up and said 'thank you' to me and smiled. i swear i almost fainted! i love him so much omgod! i think my luck is really changing! i went for his concert and got his autograph. MOST IMPORTANTLY I DIDN'T SKIP CARNIVAL. amazing crap! today is the best day of my life.

ohhh and i cried. lmao. i was too happy:)

ADAM LAMBERT!!!

2010-03-13T00:12:00.003+08:00

ADAM LAMBERT WAS DAMN FREAKING AWESOME! OMG I LOVE HIM SO MUCH! & I ALMOST FAINTED WHEN I HEARD HIS VOICE <3
so yeah photo taking wasn't allow. so sad!

oh yeah i got back my progress report. surprisingly i got above 60% and i only failed combined humanities. bloody stupid. thanks to my ss which i had scored 2/18 -.- oh well and first time in my entire life, my maths got an A1. retarded much actually cos almost the whole class got an A1 for it. so nothing to be proud of. haha and right i think class position is not important to me although this time round my class position is rather good but it's not the class position that decides my intelligence, its the grades. mmm. i needa work harder. i must.

ADAM LAMBERT

2010-03-10T21:27:00.001+08:00

OMG I FREAKING WON THE TICKET TO ADAM LAMBERT'S SHOWCASE. HOLY GOD. I ALMOST FAINTED. OMG I AM SEEING HIM LIVE! HOLY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I AM TOO HAPPY FOR WORDS. YAY

fuckthisweek

2010-03-06T19:45:00.005+08:00

this whole week is gonna be so busy till one could die. who wears their school uniform/tee from mon-sun????? omg me. i thought i could rest on sat then i realised i got co but nvm. when i felt slightly better that maybe sun i could sleep a few hours more then i remembered that i've got mass-selling to do tomorrow. AT BISHAN. fuck man. seriously. what's with the school? are they trying to kill us?????

kay whatever. i'm very depressed/worried. my right knee has been hurting since last week. its just so amazing that i could still walk or run. now its still hurting. i don't know what i've done to cause this. i can't really play the drumset now cos after awhile it'll start to hurt. :( sososososo depressed. and if i stand for slightly longer, i'll have difficulty bending my right leg. it'll hurt like fuck. omg what's wrong with me man???? i think i need the doctor. oh god. why are u doing this to me????

right i think i needa clear some homework today but i'm having flu now thanks to kim yeon jae. thanks ah! -.-

BYE.

p.s i think i'm skipping school carnival for adam lambert's autograph session!

2010-03-03T20:28:00.002+08:00

hello souls!
yeahhhh so i'm all excited for this march! i think so. woohoo adam lambert, carnival, street selling and march holidays! (Y) great so i'm once again into poa cos i did fairly well for my test and it has brought back my confidence/interest :) mmhmm so recently wulaoshi has been telling me that i've improved in terms of skills which i was rather puzzled about because i swear i did not practise at all.(i mean the basics) all i did was strum my guitar whenever i'm bored and played the drumset like always. hmm maybe playing the drumset helps to improve my skills. uhh huh i should play more then. but anyway i'm just happy that he actually saw improvement in me which i can't see it for myself. hah hmm that's all for the week?

now i'm confused. i don't know if i should continue to diet?? is losing weight really that important to me? now i'm starting to question myself. hmmmm i'm a very confuse person. i don't know if i still like him. i guess its just a passing crush. ohh mannnnnn so boring. my life has never been fun :(

great i'm gonna become broke realllllllll soon. i still owe lily, jasmin and jun kai's birthday present. oh man and next week is nicholas' birthday which i don't intend to buy:p he better not see this. hahahhahahaha alright just joking.

right i shall go. i am guilty. i ate like some random pig. f.

BYEBYE.

i am depressed.

2010-03-01T21:19:00.002+08:00

so yeah freaking adam lambert "concert", no tickets will be selling! so depressed so depressed. i can die from hearing that but oh wells can't be help. bloody hell. still kinda piss over that. so recently i've not been dieting!!! omg all my one week effort would be gone if i start eating this week. shit i better control myself. i hate food and i don't want to eat them! (deceiving myself obviously)

right today was ultimate embarrassing on bus. the bus jerked and i almost fall to my death in front of him. oh god! i was carrying many stuffs too. i almost died of embarrassment but i have no idea why i was feeling very calm and normal today. uhhhh weird. OH i did not look at his face today though the distance between us was like 1cm apart. no kidding! i'm serious! kk whatever i don't care but tomorrow rebecca's taking bus with moi! and denise taking with me on wed. HAHAHA they wanna see my goooood taste.

mm hmm bye.

ADAM LAMBERT

2010-02-27T22:33:00.001+08:00

ADAM LAMBERT IS COMING TO SINGAPORE! OMG I AM FAINTING. 12TH MARCH. I NEEDA BUY THE TICKET ASAP! BUT I AM POSITIVE THAT NO ONE WILL GO WITH ME SO I'LL END UP TREATING ONE SOUL. HOHO COME ON WHO WANNA GO WITH ME!?????? ADAM LAMBERT!!!!! OMGOSH. I AM INSANE NOW. U CAN TELL.

s.

2010-02-26T23:52:00.002+08:00

i won't do anything anymore. i won't look at you anymore. i won't be nervous when i board the bus anymore. i won't touch my hair constantly anymore. i swear i swear i won't turn my head to take a glace of you anymore but i will still like you.

uhhh huhhhh. i know it sounds abit..... but oh wells. hehehehe thing chen yang if you're reading, pls talk to me on msn asap if you see me online. i have so much to tell you! <3

2010-02-20T18:56:00.002+08:00

i'm thinking of closing down this site. its been rather dead and i'm lazy/busy to update. not even sure if there's still any readers. seeing no one leaving any comments at any post i have posted, it just tells me that no one is READINGGGGGGGGGGGGGG. oh my oh my.

mmmhmm so it feels good to like someone again. i was hell ya bored and everything. having no feelings for anyone is really suckish. so empty inside. so yeah:) hoho i am real busy nowadays. having remedial everyday after school ain't great. art is still driving me nuts. omg manszxz. okay i shall stop and start flipping my notebook for homework.

lonelyvalentine & blackforcny.

2010-02-14T23:09:00.002+08:00

for the past 16 years of my life i'm lonely for valentine's. wtf it is so not proceeding to 17 years of my life man. HAHAHA i wore full black for cny. not trying to rebel or whatsoever. i just got nothing nice to wear suckers. hoho black and white tomorrow. haha i should have gotten that red blazer. damn it. right now i'm home alone, once again and i think i gained 10kg already. all the new year goodies are in my stomach forming a balloon for me. T.T i needa run after all this. and my art is still left untouched. GREAT. i needa sketch soon. i hope i will. k bye my lovelies.

2010-02-09T21:18:00.000+08:00

Every Atom Of Me Missed Him.

2010-02-06T23:01:00.002+08:00

cos you're hot then you're cold
you're yes then you're no

youcanputtheblameonme.

2010-02-04T21:21:00.003+08:00

i was very calm. i wasn't in my usual self. i remained silent and all i did was to nod my head. i questioned myself, is it all my fault? i guess partly its my fault. you people "accused" me for not doing my job. not organising individual lessons for the upcoming grading exams. everything was my fault and all you did was to gossip behind my back. you told all sort of stories to the teacher in charge. i didn't get lectured but i felt useless. i did my job, i tried to organise lessons but it's just not as easy as it seems like. no one understand what i felt and when sectionals were used to practice our grading exam piece, i got hell from you. you screamed at me as though i really did something bad but i didn't. we didn't know that you wanted us to practise chang cheng. but now i know and we managed to play everything. you always push the blame to percussion. claiming that we dragged the whole co down. because of us, chang cheng couldn't be played but i didn't think that we're the cause. what about other sections? why only us? and now you change your stories again. well back to topic. if its my fault i'll gladly accept the lecture or anything else but i wasn't in the wrong. who have seen my effort? who?! i guess i'm already used to all this crap that is happening to me. i don't even bother to argue back because i'm tired. really. well yk wanted to explain for me that all this crap that's happening ain't my fault. he felt that i was being accused for not doing my job. well but i told him not to because its pointless. they have no trust in me. i'm sick and tired of all this till i have no reactions at all. i hate you a lot. i really do. thanks for ruining my name.
fyi, its my conductor that i hate.

2010-01-31T02:44:00.001+08:00

so empty inside that it hurts.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADAM LAMBERT!

2010-01-29T20:48:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY
TO
ADAM LAMBERT!!!
i am going nuts alr. (L)

p.s/ i bought his album today :D woohoo

mondaytuesdaythursdayfriday.

2010-01-28T21:52:00.002+08:00

i am afraid to dream of anything good
because my dreams are always opposite.

iamobsessed.

2010-01-25T15:35:00.004+08:00

this is hot. don't u disagree.

mad week. i am going insane soon. there's freaking chemistry and poa CA tomorrow and i've yet to study. no wait, actually i tried revising chem just now but failed. i almost fell asleep but when i sat in front of the com, i am wide awake! oh the power of it. so here i am slacking away when there's 2 tests tomorrow! omg someone kill me please. i am so fucking stressed. i don't understand physics. its not that i don't listen but i just don't get mr toh's teaching. i hate teachers who drag the whole explanation. i hate it! this feeling just sucks. how am i gonna study for chem and poa later. i don't want to flunk it. OH CRAP lit CA on friday? fuck kill me. i've not read the 9 chapters of heartland. OH MY GOD....

today:
study for chem and poa test
revise physics, physics homework
english homework.

how the hell am i gonna accomplish all this shit today????
and next week onwards 6 english lessons per week(excluding sat and sun). WTF?

okay surprisingly the only thing that relaxs me now is art. yes i enjoy doing art.

i need someone to be by my side. i really do.
BYE

2010-01-23T00:13:00.002+08:00

it's more than a week and i'm still obsessed with adam lambert. what an achievement! boohoo. so school's been pretty busy for me. no time to waste and i'm being ironic here since i'm now wasting my time blogging. opps.

okay so my life is once again sort off happening. i look forward to school everyday(maybe?) no so i am really weird. i don't know why before i board the bus 13 everyday, i get real nervous. like some nervous breakdown or something?? oh mans of cos i'm not mentioning it here. spb2. if you get what i mean. teehee.

byebyebye.

2010-01-17T00:06:00.004+08:00

(totally no link to my post. i just wanted the post to look longer)

so...
I don't mind studying about drums for the rest of my life. i know this is not possible and somehow i still want to study law. (MORE IMPOSSIBLE) damn. okay so i went nafa and lasalle open house today. mmmhmm.

i am not in the blogging mood:P

so BB.
art research?

art.art.art.

2010-01-14T20:48:00.002+08:00

flying kites, electrical items, bridges, segmented, knots, fashion accessories.

art topics for o'level. so surprisingly i choose electrical items. really happy that i can actually relate the topic to my life. looking forward to draw it! woot time for moi research^^ i love art ever since mrs ow started teaching us :)

right a little about my life?
so i've been offered o'level science! really shocking cos i did badly for EOY. mmhmm actually i rejected the offer but today mrs teo told me to go for it. hmm yeah so after some thinking i guess i'll take it. :) hope i can do well for art and science. oh not forgetting mt!

ah ha so thats all! i've gotta buck up. oh wait i just remembered something. so there was this maths diagnostic test to see if you're qualify for o'level maths. so i didn't study for it cos i didn't want to take. i think i failed and kamlesh was irritating as ever.

i was walking towards my mt class and i saw kamlesh. *shit la. bloody hell*
i know for sure that he'll say something. so kamlesh walked past me and he went: so disappointed!
well... expected. bleh. oh whatever. bye for now.

recent obsession:

2010-01-13T18:34:00.005+08:00

I Love Adam Lambert

there's nothing wrong with it. i don't fucking care whether he's a gay or not. i don't care! i just love him and his great voice. he's hot too! oh wait i think he's cute ;)

so i wrote Adam Lambert on my wrist today and poh yang kai tried to rub it off. haha suckerrrr

cca orientation.

2010-01-09T23:05:00.003+08:00

not up to standard but we did our best didn't we? i think percussion did :D (a little messy and power though, but we liked it.) had lunch at parkway with alicia, sm and yj :) headed home and fell asleep immediately when i hit the bed. that shows how tired i was. waking up at 5.45am on six consecutive days. i almost died. really tired and the week's gonna pass just like that. how fast again. so i'm gonna make a promise to myself. oh wait, i've yet to blog about my new year's resolutions. (i'm so freaking lagggggg but i don't care)

1. a1 for art and chinese. (it's possible okayyyy)

2. pass my N'level.

3. study for at least 1hour everyday.

4. continue playing the drumset and guitar. yes i'm the type that always give up halfway so i hope by the end of year i'll still be strumming my guitar. as for drumset, i must keep improving on it, nothing more or less. i love playing the drumset more than anything.

5. maintain my current size even though i'm fat now but as long as i don't gain extras, i'm fine with my current size. if i can lose it's even better! :)

6. to find back the old feel.

hmmm till here i guess. i'll figure out more soon. heh bye

awesomeornot???

2010-01-08T18:08:00.002+08:00

o'level art question on monday.
please! i pray i pray.

till here/

justmythoughts.

2010-01-05T19:39:00.004+08:00

i hate it when people ignored me when they obviously heard me calling. like wtf pls? fucking cb bitch(according to shaz, me scolding vulgarities has no kick/punch at all.) HAHA. right and that nb girl, attitude fuck uh? omg if i were to go on, i'll be teaching you people vulgarities instead. meh~ kay so i was in a dilemma today. i couldn't decide whether to go for mdm yeo's poa class or mr tan's. i wanted to try mdm yeo's class cos according to everyone, she's better. right but on the other hand, i will feel bad leaving mr tan's class. so i ended up going back to mr tan's poa class. i mean everyone should spare a thought for mr tan and i'm the only chi girl left in mr tan's poa class. great but i really feel like trying mdm yeo's class. there's freaking gabriel, henry and many more that will disrupt the lesson. i don't know if i can concentrate but considering the fact that i managed to pull through last year. i guess it's fine. p.s i got a1 for poa. so what does this shows? mr tan and mdm yeo both are equally good. its just whether you wanna concentrate or not. okay i've made up my mind. i'm gonne stay in mr tan's class. if there's any doubts in understanding, he'll always be there for consultation. so long to those people who didn't spare a thought for mr tan and anyone or everyone i suppose can imagine those feeling. if you've read till here, you should be able to understand what feeling i'm talking about.

i thought it was rather selfish of you people. its not like you guys did badly for poa. its just the 'mdm yeo's better.' thinking and poof! all girls gone except 3 of us(girls) yes even though you're at mdm yeo's class now, i'll not let you beat me. YES I WON'T. :)

fuckyeahtaylormomsen

2010-01-04T20:30:00.003+08:00

(L)

hey darlings,
not updating so often anymore.(the same old usual line) school started and definitely am gonna be super busy. getting o'lvl art topics this month. am i seriously taking o'lvl art??? not convincing enough i know.

omg okay omg okay omg okay.
tomorrow is the start of everything. the same old routine...
i am freaking sec 4 now! i will study. i must study. i will study. i must study. YAY

you're a secret/

i think i'm fallin' for you

2010-01-02T12:36:00.003+08:00

I don't know but I think
I maybe fallin' for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should keep this to myself
Waiting 'til I know you better
I am trying not to tell you
but I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
but I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head.

2010

2010-01-01T22:57:00.002+08:00

Happy 2010!
i hope it'll be better than 2009.
plox

ANYWAY, i've been wanting to blog about this. so serene neo gave me her guitar, YES A GUITAR. omg! for christmas. omg everyone fainted after knowing the news. me fainted on the spot. haha thanks alot for the gift. i love it! she's damn funny.
s: my heart will feel the ache if i sell or give away so i might as well give it to you.

right bye people.
just a few more days to school. holy crap.

R.I.P. REV

2009-12-29T15:36:00.003+08:00

r.i.p. rev

i definitely will miss you and your drumming badly! omg what on earth man! one of my fave drummer just fucking passed away?? i am god damn depressed please! i totally regret not going for a7x concert last year! even if they were to come now, it won't be the same anymore cos rev is gone :( 2009 is a devastating year. fuck it.

.. Jimmy; just keep drumming on the other side baby. Whenever it storms, I wont hear the thunder, i'll hear you rocking out ♥ ..

someone posted that on myspace. well said babe. oh my i still can't believe it. :(
bye and r.i.p rev. you'll always be remembered.

phone baby phone.

2009-12-28T21:42:00.003+08:00

sony ericsson Aino

samsung corby.
if i were to get this, it definitely will be orange! DUH

LG GW620
okay this phone's good for me
cos i love touchscreen with qwerty keypad!

so yeah i think i'm getting LG GW620. needa try sth new. no more sony ericsson or nokia. BUT if its too ex then i'll get my sexy orange samsung corby. :DD lubszxz

half-dead

2009-12-28T12:38:00.002+08:00

thank you my beloved brother for spreading the freaking flu to me. now that you're fine and still sleeping like a log, your dearest sister is here typing this very short post with mucus flowing down like a running tap. and i think i had food poisoning or sth? cos i had diarrhea the moment i woke up. not once but twicezxz. i am gonna cook some porridge for myself now(the saddest sentence ever. cos who on earth cook porridge for themselves when they're sick?!? well, me.) okay sneezing like f.

i'll kill her

2009-12-26T11:18:00.002+08:00

so, of course, you were supposed to call me tonight
you were supposed to call me tonight
we would have gone to the cinema
and, after, to the restaurant, the one you like in your street

we would have slept together, have a nice breakfast together
and then a walk in a park together, how beautiful, and then
you would have said "i love you" in the cutest place on earth
where some butterflies are dancing with the fairies

i would have waited like a week or two
but you never tried to reach me
no, you never called me back
you were dating that bleach-blonde girl
if i find her, i swear, i swear...

i'll kill her, i'll kill her
she stole my future, she broke my dream
i'll kill her, i'll kill her
she stole my future when she took you away

i would have met your friends, we would have had a drink or two
they would have liked me, 'cause sometimes i'm funny
i would have met your dad, i would have met your mum
she would have said "please, can you make some beautiful babies?"

so we would have had a boy called tom and a girl called susan, born in japan

i thought it was a love story, but you don't want to get involved
i thought it was a love story, but you're not ready for that ...

me neither. i'll kill her
she stole my future, she broke my dream
i'll kill her, i'll kill her
she stole my future when she took you away

she's a bitch you know, all she's got is blondeness
not even tenderness, yeah, she's cleverless
she'll dump your arse for a model called brendan
he will pay for beautiful surgery 'cause he's full of money

i would have waited like a week or two
but you never tried to reach me
no, you never called me back
you were dating that bleach-blonde girl
if i find her, you know, i swear, i swear, i swear ...

i'll kill her, i'll kill her
she stole my future, she broke my dream
i'll kill her, i'll kill her
she stole my future when she took you away
i'll kill her, i'll kill her
she stole my future, she broke my dream
i'll kill her, i'll kill her
she stole my future when she took you away

man, i told you, you know, if i find her,
i really, i, i mean, i'll kill her, for real!
it's like for sure, you have to know, uh,
i mean, you know, i can do it, man,
i'll kill her.

♥

merry x'mas

2009-12-25T23:15:00.002+08:00

is today really christmas? :/

"xmas"celebration,classbbq

2009-12-24T21:23:00.006+08:00

class bbq
the guys were there just fyi :)

xmas partyy

do you still remember me?

i miss you

2009-12-21T22:22:00.003+08:00

all of a sudden/

kay hah. my blog is so dead but i don't care. i will revive it MYSELF. right having those super wordy post can be boring but photos for "Christmas" party aren't up yet :/ i don't want to go on ranting about retarded stuff that bores you. mmm so i'll remain very silent here till denise decided to upload those pictures and i'll upload it here. NOT ALL(100+ pictures you know, omg) but those that i look good in;D teehee.

okay crap i forgot what i was supposed to talk about. oh yeah! i just remembered...i edited my blogskin and i love it now! woohooo and omg i want this wedges(somehow similar to this)

omgosh paingzxz why the hell am i broke???? z. anyways i'm working for my mum tomorrow! personally i think the pay is little but considering the fact that i just needa sit and type in datas, oh wells fine. 1hour 5bucks :/ mehhh k i shall work tomorrow and earn myself some bucks. $.$

mm k till here.
oh wait, piangszxz why nobody tag me??? :( so depressing kay?
bye.

2009-12-17T21:37:00.006+08:00

HI
you must be wondering "wtf i thought you said bye for real." hah. right i needa blog just today. yesterday was damn awesome. fashion passion at denise's, chanel inspired! woah it was hell loads of fun. pictures all up at facebook. well incase you're too lazy or couldn't be bothered to view them but happened to be reading my very awesome blog, HAHA i am gonna upload a few cos i feel like :D so in any ways, you'll still see it. (okay fine whatever if you die die also don't want to see.)

........

so off to town with den, shaz and sya. caught princess and the frog with den's sister:) the movie's awesome manzxzx worth watching! haha so yeah i left for tuition after that. i was sort of late for 20mins but i won't exactly call it late because when i reached, they have yet to start. haha thank god. ohoh i was actually dreading tuition cos i felt awkward and stuff. being the only girl among 3 boys feel totally weird butttttttttt today i got to see another tuition mate(for the last two lessons he wasn't there), sam. HAHA he's better than another tuition guy cos he's more friendly. it was really stupid and funny. my tuition teacher introduced us to each other and he went,
s: new comer ah?
s: hi...i'm sam....(really soft tone)
me: hi...
HAHA we all laughed at it. damn hilarious if you were there to listen to how my tuition teacher described his way of introducing. haha but well he's real funny and tuition feels much more livelier. GREAT and shazzy's joining my tuition next year. (L)

mmhmmm DIE. tmr got drum lesson!!! i've not practise!!! i am officially dead. gahhhhh k byeszxz for now. off to practise. i am freaking excited for sat!!! omgosh it's gonna be so awesome.

xoxo (L)

bye for real.

2009-12-15T12:32:00.002+08:00

i think i wanna stop blogging. not exactly stopping but i won't be updating it so often. anyway it's dead and i can't be bothered to revive it. let it rot let it rot. i can't write about my personal stuff here cos people will read(somehow) so yea i've decided to write it in a diary instead(HAHA zomg) yes i've got a diary NOW and i'm gonna pen down my thoughts in there. mmm i can talk about anything and i seriously hopes my mum doesn't read them. (i left it under the table:0) okayy since i'm here then i shall talk about how dead i am.

so here you go,
i have to fill up 4 pieces of a3 paper with sketches. i mentioned that before and i really have zero clues on how to get started! so i hate art for some particular reason. i'm left with 5 stacks of chinese paper, poa worksheets(not intending to do though) and maths maths maths to complete. i can feel how busy i'll be starting today! yalah, i'm gonna do my hw later on. no kidding;) mmmhmm today's goal is to finish maths! i know i can if i don't get distracted by the tv, ds, drums, books and lastly facebook. okayyyy i better get started by 2pm:D meanwhile i shall go watch vampire diaries. hehe so long my dear readers if there's any:)

xoxo

DENISEYEOKAITING.♥

2009-12-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTF!!!

okay here you go. you're finally 15!! i think i'll never ever type finished but oh wells i'll cut short. thanks for being my bestf since sec1. i wanted to upload our sec1 pictures(OMG right) nah just scaring you(well actually i don't know where on earth is our damn pics!). hahaha i'm kinda stuck on what to type here. oh wells hope you'll enjoy tomorrow(which is today) :D

oh ya your wishlist! hahahha ridiculously diaoszxzzxz

you'll get him someday, someday.... HAHAHAHHHAHAHA oh yeah lastly
i love you bestf! hehe

p.s/ i am not suppose to blog.(but who cares! it's my bestf bday!) ;)

BYEsxzxz

2009-12-07T13:24:00.002+08:00

December is passing way too fast and before i knew it's the second week already! my oh my. the usual boring plans for myself. needa start on books already(!) am planning to finish all my homework by next week( excluding art) well speaking of art, i'm in dead shit for sure. there's like 4 pieces of A3 paper to be filled with sketches and awesome me have yet to start on a single sketch. am i dead? am i alive? wells i don't exactly get what j.yeo wants us to do. oh wells guess i'm just gonna imitate the artist style and work. OH wait! i have yet to choose an artist! :X gone case~

rights am doing pretty okay for maths lately. hmm gonnna mug harder later on. i have the sudden urge to chiong maths! :) feeling all motivated now and i have no idea why. ohh wait, i have 5 stack of chinese paper2 to complete! omgoshhh i feel dead nowszxzx. oh wells guess i'll do 1 stack per day? it will work. it will work.

alright, i shall plan out a schedule for myself if not my homework will remain untouched. haiz this holiday is really boring and not very fruitful for me. the only thing that keeps me excited and happy is only drum lesson. having 1hour lesson this week! woohoo i am all excited to learn move along. cool shit cool shit. yayee.

uhhhh kayyy i shall sweep and mop the floor nowszxz. maths after that:D
oh yeah think i'm getting my guitar(finally) this week:D WOOHOOO can't wait(!)

so yeah BYE lovely readers(doubt there's any)
see ya when i finally finish my homework;)

new moon

2009-12-03T21:49:00.000+08:00

caught new moon with samantha, shuling, jing jie and kaymin. IT WAS DAMN AWESOME. I LOVE TAYLOR LAUTNER(I SAID THAT ZILLION TIMES ALR) his body is bloody hot. i was drooling all the way manszxz. HAHAHAHHA. worth watching :D

i ate like a pig again. needa run needa run:(

here comes goodbye

2009-12-02T08:59:00.002+08:00

i wish,
i never met you, never knew you.

Today,
-weird dreams
-running with peeps later on:)
-going back to school, collecting drumset:D
-maybe going out with jas and gang.

NOW
-buy breakfast! i am so hungry. HAHA

2009-11-27T15:49:00.005+08:00

hi!
i've got so much to blog about BUT i am very lazy.
so yeah i shall do a quick summary :D

-co camp
-sm's house
-running at stadium
-band concert
-broke ttm. ($1.40 in my wallet ytd :( )
-pigging out at market today(!)

i think there's alot more but i can't remember. hahaha yups i can't wait for the week to end! been really busy this week. i've gotta start on my homework like real soon. needa start practising on my art skills. i don't even think i can do simple toning now(!) greatttttttt. maths is bugging me(!) so after all i am not free even in december. haiz. i think i needa plan out a schedule. not sure if it'll even work for people like me. ohh wells i guess no harm trying though i've a bad feeling about it. HAH.

wooo my stomach feels like it's on fire! must be the otah that i ate just now. thanks to andrew(!) right i shall end here. buais.

p.s/ i don't like you anymore :)

pp.

2009-11-23T20:05:00.002+08:00

woo i am going co camp tomorrow~ don't really feel like attending cos it's only pathetic 2days 1night. pretty lame thanks to v.ang-.- oh wells had another clean up cos v.ang complained that the drying yard's too DUSTY. yeah whatever man. she's not the one doing the job. percussion's the one cleaning it so just shut her gaps up. argg okayy so pp-ed with cy, yk, nic and yj today:) FUN!

okayy damn lazy to pack my bag..hmm oh well i'll pack later and gonna sleep early:)
i am looking forward to nightwalk now! am pretty sure that i'll somehow scare myself. HAHA

oh shit i've not been running for two days and ate more than usual. dieee i'll go on a massive diet/running after this week. OH i can't wait! getting fatter again:(

right i'll follow my heart. i like you and i shall not deny.
it's not a passing crush/

2009-11-22T10:07:00.005+08:00

i'm feeling restless now..maybe i ran too much yesterday. oh wells i guess i'm resting today. having some running nose now ): maybe it's rain? hmm...

so open house was okay yesterday minus the part that the performance was a little screwed up? oh well oh well. after which we all went running at bedok stadium :D (andrew, cheeyan, yk, yeon jae, rebecca, nic and me) it was awesome and thanks to cheeyan i finally achieved my goal! woohoo. well went church with denise and awesome too. HAHA. i can't wait for next week to be over! i wanna go out with shaz, syaf and denise. i'm so damn busy! argggg.

so yea i don't know what's on my mind now. i tried to talk to you. as in trying to continue the conversation but oh my, you're a little boring.(sorry but....) my usual reply would be "hahaha, lol" or some other two words reply. but because its you, i had to think of something else cos i don't want to end the conversation but i guess i failed. i really don't know what to reply man and not replying feels a little rude since i'm the one who started the conversation so yea. it all ended with my usual two words reply. haiz

and why am i having those sad feelings after looking at that photo?
i am getting weirder each day.

2009-11-17T21:04:00.002+08:00

HIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!
i am loving co more and more each day because
CO'S GETTING A NEW DRUMSET FOR PERCUSSION!
OMGOSH! are you screaming with me?!?!?!
hiak hiak, i am so excited.
thanks to my instructor. he's the best! :D

okay great, i'm stationing at somewhere horrible for nightwalk.
I AM DEAD.

hmm bye. i wanna watch tv:D teehee

2009-11-16T22:45:00.003+08:00

hello!
had a running session with rebecca and andrew at bedok stadium today. i swear i'll run there everyday. i really will if only i'm not so busy. after running, headed down to yeon jae's condo for a gyming session. HAHA i know that was crazy but i needa lose weight! i am way too fat D: haha so yep i ran alot today. kinda tired now. going to bed soon. yups and i am very busy this week.

tomorrow- co from 8am-6pm. OMG PLEASE D:
wednesday- i am free! running with rebecca!
thursday- grading exam lesson.
friday- open house rehearsal and drum lesson at pp. (damn tiring)
saturday- open house and percussion outing:D
sunday- i am once again free! running!

yeah not yet :( next week is co camp!

24/11 Tue:10am – 1pm Full orchestra
2pm to 6pm Sectional
6pm onwards Camp activities
25/11 Wed: Morning to 12noon Camp activities
28/11 Sat: 8.30am – 12.30pm Full orchestra

i can seriously die! but nevermind i shall enjoy the camp:) saddest news ever, i am gonna be stationed at somewhere during nightwalk!(again)omg... before i even scare anyone, i think i'll scare myself first. DIEEEE. SHIT i shall drag someone along with me if possible.

right k nights all. have to wake up early tomorrow!
bye!

i like talking with you:)

Blender- the pretty reckless

2009-11-14T17:27:00.003+08:00

fave song.
by the pretty reckless:)
listen to it!

1, 2, 3, 4
I used to hate you
But now I love you
So like a rose
So like a rose
But when you kiss me I wanna slap you
But sorry it's lost
The feeling is lost
I chew my nails down
I look at the ground
I am pissed
I am shy
Cause you threw me in a blender
I am hot
I am cold
Do you wanna get to know me
Do you wanna learn to get inside my head
Do you wanna get to touch me
Cause now my ex is officially dead
I don't lalalala like you
I lalalala love you
I used to hahaha hate you
And now I really fucking love you

I'm feeling stupid
But I won't tell you
I am blond
I feel dumb
I sound sweetly in the daytime
Not a turn, not a turn
I cry my eyes out
Hoping you'll shout
Be my girlfriend
Be my girlfriend
And when you kiss her
I'll tell you it hurts
I want more
I want more
So you do you wanna get to know me
Do you wanna learn to get inside my head
Do you wanna get to touch me
Cause now my ex is officially dead
I don't lalalala like you
I lalalala love you
I used to hahaha hate you
And now I really fucking love you

Could you, could you, could you, could you keep a secret
Would you, would you, would you, would you wanna keep it
Wanna, wanna, wanna, wanna make a scandal
But I can get ya, get ya, get ya by the handle
And if you, if you, if you really feel me
Then you got me, got me, got me thinking maybe
For a minute or maybe to we're not in public
I'll make you lalalala lovesick
I don't lalalala like you
I lalalala love you
I used to hahaha hate you
But now I really fucking love you
I don't lalalala like you
I lalalala love you
I used to hahaha hate you
But now I really fucking love you

2009-11-13T19:46:00.004+08:00

Hello darlings!

Today's a fun and happy day! :D i shall just summarise it.
1) last day of school :DD
2) parkway with percussion and fellow classmates!
3) yang kai fixed the drumset already~!
4) cleaned the dry yard and played drums.
5) drum class was awesome!
6) ate dinner with aunt and mum :)
7) received the jacket i ordered online:D

yepp that's all. HAH
yeah so yang kai, chee yan, carissa, rebecca, jun rong and i skipped english lesson today and went parkway. heh felt kinda guilty but sabina's lesson is really boring so yeah. opps:x met up with perc(excluding alicia) and ate at foodcourt. headed back to school at around 1pm and it was raining heavily. we were all drenched! felt kinda bad cos i said 'fuck off' to yang kai when he pulled my hair(i wasn't even sure if it was him:/) and ignored him when he asked me how my hair was tied? well he still helped me fixed the drumset when i treated him that way. i am so sorry buddy! heh:) so yep we cleaned the dry yard and it looks awesome now but we're all pretty sure that next week it'll revert back to normal. hmmm..anw we didn't do much. yangkai was actually the one who cleaned the most. HAH so thank you! :D

i wanna runnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!
anyone up for running? :)

BYE

D:

2009-11-12T20:15:00.008+08:00

oh my gosh, wtf. !@#$%^&!#$%#@ okay a little vulgar but omg. i feel that i can kill myself...really...i am serious. what on earth am i thinking?! like why the hell was i so bloody dumb:( sharks, really depressed now.(no, actually just a little)

kay whatever. caught astro boy movie with yeon jae today! the movie was awesome! really awesome. i can watch it for like 10 times but i'll still not get sick of it. it's a must watch for everyone. the movie's touching and i almost cried(guess i'm too emotional. hiak) so yup tomorrow's the last day of school! omg finally. and it's pretty lame. we're just having 2 hours of lessons tomorrow and i thought of skipping it but oh wells but the sake of poa, i shall just attend it.

yups, i got 22/35 for maths test today:) i did not study for it so it makes me feel a little smarter. heh heh:D and omg i saw a drumset for only $800+ OMG MAN. i want!!!! haizzzz dream longer alison chu...D:

right, i want to talk to you but it seems too weird. looking at the people around you, i'm feeling kinda 'huh?'. what on earth man? i don't know how to explain it but i still wanna talk to you! i just don't know how to start...haizzz this is getting too ridiculous but omg i really wanna talk to you though you're kinda boring but still... okay i'm making no sense here-.- haiz i feel stupid.

hmm...kay i am so excited for drum class tmr!(as usual) :DDD and we're cleaning up the dry yard too:( i'll sneeze like hell man. HAH i am gonna fix the drumset and play till i go nuts. hehe here i come my beloved dismantled drumset. :D

2009-11-11T17:20:00.004+08:00

HI.
i think mr k is a bitch. long story but whatever. he talked for damn long to the class just to comment on me. i think he's pms-ing and venting out his anger on me. i felt so innocent at that point. like what on earth has me not qualifying for olevel maths gotta do with him having to stop for every few minutes when he's teaching? he went "a girl who slacked for 6 months and did badly for maths during mid-year and only started to practise during eoy. she finally proved that she could do maths but bcos of her mid-year, she wasn't qualify for olevel maths next year. i was hoping that she could join her brother next class. according to him jun shen's my brother just bcos we got the same surname-.-" hiak whatever. so bitchy please. everyone thought that i was pissed off but i wasn't cos he's not worth it. hmm so ya whatever i am not taking olevel maths next year. i don't want to die so early.

RUNNING!
right so after school rebecca, andrew, qx and me went bedok stadium to run:) andrew was freaking psycho, doing all the parkour workout. OMG man. so yep we ran 5 rounds first w/o stopping. after doing sit ups and everything, went to run 2 more rounds. so in total i ran 7 rounds but i still failed! :( me target was to ran 8 rounds. haizzz nvm nvm. i am sure next week i will be able to run 8 rounds! ^^

hmm tmr watching movie with yeon jae! so excited:D
i am damn freaking tired now...tmr there's maths test! and ss hw due:( damn shit.

hmm i hate to admit it but i freaking miss you.
uhh...

BYE

gym!

2009-11-10T18:20:00.003+08:00

(more at facebook)

went gym-ing with yeon jae at her condo just now:) so fun and fruitful. am going there again next week. i gotta shed some weights off. WOOHOO. tomorrow running at bedok stadium(i think) HAHAH and omg yeon jae's damn sick now!!! hah i shall not post it out. i am so kind! meh and the post ends abruptly here. HEH HEH.

it felt like a dream.

2009-11-09T17:41:00.002+08:00

the fact is
i like you, i want to hear from you.

2009-11-08T12:38:00.006+08:00

i don't know what i want.
i am all confused.

hah i think nicholas is under my bestfriend list already. HAHA.

conversation with nic last night.
it's retarded.
words in bold is nicholas.

8/11/2009	1:53:46	Alison;	[b]iam[c=4]NICHOLAS[/c][/b]	tsk anw my whole class knows my secret
8/11/2009	1:53:46	[b]iam[c=4]NICHOLAS[/c][/b]	Alison;	lols
8/11/2009	1:53:48	[b]iam[c=4]NICHOLAS[/c][/b]	Alison;	:((
8/11/2009	1:53:50	Alison;	[b]iam[c=4]NICHOLAS[/c][/b]	so my secret is never a secret
8/11/2009	1:53:53	[b]iam[c=4]NICHOLAS[/c][/b]	Alison;	urs is u ownself go tell whole world
8/11/2009	1:53:53	Alison;	[b]iam[c=4]NICHOLAS[/c][/b]	hahahhha
8/11/2009	1:54:00	Alison;	[b]iam[c=4]NICHOLAS[/c][/b]	yea kinda
8/11/2009	1:54:07	Alison;	[b]iam[c=4]NICHOLAS[/c][/b]	i told my close friends
8/11/2009	1:54:22	Alison;	[b]iam[c=4]NICHOLAS[/c][/b]	w/o realising that i have too many close friends
8/11/2009	1:54:23	Alison;	[b]iam[c=4]NICHOLAS[/c][/b]	-.-
8/11/2009	1:55:11	[b]iam[c=4]NICHOLAS[/c][/b]	Alison;	lols
8/11/2009	1:55:12	[b]iam[c=4]NICHOLAS[/c][/b]	Alison;	HAHA
8/11/2009	1:55:14	[b]iam[c=4]NICHOLAS[/c][/b]	Alison;	same :D
8/11/2009	1:55:16	[b]iam[c=4]NICHOLAS[/c][/b]	Alison;	HI-FIVE

i will do my art later on...

bored

2009-11-07T14:19:00.002+08:00

DAMN. i was late for cca today(first time i think?) and i have to copy scores. wth...right whatever co was so freaking boring! we played fen yong for god knows how many times. i almost died of boredom there. and and and i am not talking to mr poh yang kai for one week. HMMP! he is such an asshole. he kept saying that _ is fucking gay and imitated him. wth. well i admit that _ dp is kinda gay... but still yang kai was too much. hahah that idiot kept trying to make me talk to him but failed! heh heh i won't fall for his lousy tricks. but i know on monday we'll start talking again cos i always fail to ignore him for days:(

hmm so yea, i'm going church with denise later on. kinda lazy though but oh wells.

bye

2009-11-06T21:56:00.003+08:00

today's awesome!
but i am very lazy to summarise everything. so all i can say is, I LOVE DRUMS.
teehee.
tomorrow there's CO. wth i am feeling so sian about it. feel like skipping but i know i won't succeed cos i love my cca too much(-.-) HAHA i am going for the sake of the drumset:D oh and i don't feel like going for co camp but i don't have a choice anw cos i'm one of the group leaders. (this is supposed to be a secret but i don't care)

i got bitten by some random insects and my legs are itching! and now it's turning into some bruise. feeling damn sian about this. firstly my thighs look distorted. secondly it's fucking itchy for god sake. thirdly the medicine, oilmen or whatsoever didn't work and i am still itching! grr.

RIGHT THIS IS FUCKING AMAZING. I TELL YOU.
weeks ago-
me: denise! i dreamt of _ last night! i think something's gonna happen!
fyi, i have not talk to _ for quite some time.
and yup whenever i dream of someone suddenly means something's gonna happen. yea seriously no kidding. so after few days, _ talked. not exactly talking but still sort of appearing again. this is damn weird i swear. well actually it depends on one's thinking. if you don't believe then it'll never happened but for me i believe this cos it always happen to me. my dreams are forever opposite(most of the time) HAH

right right i shall practice my drum scores later just in case they play fen yong tomorrow. i have already forgotten the beat. DEAD.
omg i'm so obsessed with guitar and drums. am i nuts? HAHA.

and my readers are all gone(i assume) cos nobody leaves a tag or so:(

k byeeeee

Seize the day.

2009-11-02T20:38:00.002+08:00

do not grieve
over the past,
for it is gone

do not worry
about the future,
for it has yet to come.

as long as it is
called today,
live this day as if
it was your last,
and you will
find each day
worth living for!

hmm...i like it. got that from a bookmark given by mdm wan:)
till here.

2009-11-01T00:37:00.002+08:00

i added faizal isa from singapore idol on facebook and he accepted! i almost fainted. HAHA. anyway i am having a pretty sad life now cos at this hour i should be sleeping but i can't as i am doing my art homework:( i can't find an artist that i want. holy shit man. tomorrow i still needa sketch one thing which i don't know what yet:/ all this crap is driving me nuts! 2weeks of extended curriculum. damn damn.

i have decided to get a guitar instead of a new phone. hmmm can't wait:D
right i shall end here, back to search for my lovely artist.
bb

sg idol(28/10/09)

2009-10-29T20:46:00.004+08:00

(more at facebook:D)

went sg idol with shaz and syafiq last night. well it was fun but saddest news was malaque's out! which also means that we can't go anymore since we went as malaque's fans. HAHA oh well anyway i enjoyed it. thank you shaz:) hahhaha got one freaking ang moh damn hot and i like faizal isa! OMG i support him!! partly because i think he's cute. teehee. right right. HAHA.

TODAY!
curry's house today with rebecca! hahaha. played guitar and now my finger tips are numb:( had a badminton session too and it was awesome. i sweat alot= exercised= lost a few grams:D yay so happy! hahahah so ya that's it i guess. the bus trip home was freaking long since miss curry stays at punggol while i stay at eunos. LOL hmmm i'm off to watch tv. woohoo
drum class tmr! yay i'm so excited. hahaha

hakiim and jun kai are bastards. THEY INJURED ME TODAY. GO DIE.

BYE

2009-10-28T17:15:00.003+08:00

why? why?? why???
why can't i just bear with it?
why must i keep thinking about it?
omg i hate myself so much. i am determined to lose weight but i can't stop thinking about food. like super wtf please. and i'm not exercising regularly when i'm supposed to. wth! i'm freaking angry with myself. i really wanna go back to those days where i really had the determination to lose weight but now i just don't. hate myself for that!!!

okay great, i'm taking art o'level next year. wtf man.
i'm going singapore idol later. yay?
i wanna lose weight badly(healthy way) but i don't know how to. arg.

3/9

2009-10-27T20:35:00.002+08:00

we'll stay as one, i hope.

who is gonna be my motivation?

2009-10-26T09:21:00.002+08:00

i am determined! i will not go crazy over nerdy, cute, decent, innocent chinese guys anymore. i promised denise, syafiq and shaz and from now on i will only look at ang moh(upgrading my taste)! oh well i make sure i can make it cos cute innocent chinese guys totally increase my heartbeat. ahh damn it. i shall go crazy over ang mohs now which does not exist in my school! hahaha

so gorgeous please. hahaha this is it. i will only look at this type.

Sectional outing??

2009-10-24T19:31:00.002+08:00

right met up with yang kai, chee yan, nicholas, yeon jae and shi min at eunos mrt before heading down to bugis. supposed to catch a movie but somehow they were too tired to watch(they went cycling at east coast before that.) hah so we ended up slacking and chatting. after which we went to the arcade. saw this drum thingy game and the guy that was playing on it was totally awesome. sm and i couldn't take our eyes off him. too pro for words man. well i just don't understand why some people are just so good at games while i'm a total noob! hah anw we didn't do much except slacking. hmm i guess i'll be planning another sectional outing:) this time round was planned by nic and cy. HAHA. saddest thing ever, no pictures!!!

you're so unpredictable.
i can't read your mind at all.
i wish i knew more about you.
but you're so far away from me.

!

2009-10-23T20:07:00.001+08:00

i knew it. i knew it!
damn it, it's forever the same. no fate-.-
oh i like charcoal better~ hmmmm no :x

i'm over it

2009-10-23T17:53:00.004+08:00

hi.
uhhh so i got i back all my papers and i am very proud to announce that i passed all my subjects:D first time in my whole entire secondary school life. i was really shocked by my maths result today. i really didn't expect myself to score a b3 for it. i thought the most i could get was a c5. i was really happy but my mid-year pulled me down so now i'm not qualify for o-level maths next year:( have to get at least 6o% for a test(i forgot what it's called) during January then i'll be qualify. HAIZ but nevermind i shall work hard during this holidays because i want to clear my maths!

oh yeah and sorry for all the wordy post. well i will post some photos soon like sunday? hmm outing with denise, shaz, syafiq and many more. WOO can't wait for it! tomorrow i'm going church with denise and gonna abandon my fellow section:( i am not going for sectional outing, how sad. HEH there's always another i guess. HAHAHA.

oh, i did very badly for mt and i'm very disappointed with myself. i just pray that i can take o-level mt next year if not i'm dead shit. seriously. i shall follow my mother's footsteps by reading newspaper everyday. HAHA my chi will seriously improve like nuts. i bet you.

hmmmmm you changed a lot seriously. be back to normal before everything's too late.

AHH, i want a drumset badly!

well k bye.

marina barrage

2009-10-20T16:50:00.004+08:00

received class photo today:)
love my class always.

right today was some post-exams activity and it was held in marina barrage. i swear i was about to die man. we walked up and down and played some games under the hot sun. oh god my sunblock totally didn't work! i felt skin was burning:( even my bag's zip turned really hot. and after all the games, we had picnic? OH YES A PICNIC after being all sweaty and wet(water games), we sat down as a class and had picnic. oh well they enjoyed the chips while poor rebecca and me had to drink only plain water. haiz because we're both on diet. but never mind we both were not tempted and that's a good sign! YAY. but overall it's fun! it's so sad that you didn't come joni cos you missed out all the fun! :D

shit, i told shaz and denise something today. as usual denise already knew what i was going to tell her. man, i'm still feeling weird about it like kinda sudden. i don't know when i started to have that tiny winy bit of feelings for him. woah shit man. wth is this? great now i'm confused. oh forget it man. i shall live in denial. HAHA

BYE

Bedok reservoir/

2009-10-19T20:06:00.005+08:00

me, jun kai, andrew and rebecca
:( i look freaking gross. HAIZ.
and thanks to my awesome photography skills, the photo ended like this:)

yep so andrew, rebecca, jun kai and me ran one round at bedok reservoir. well practically we walked half a round and ran a half a round:D my fault my fault. SO SORRY:) but at least we ran. HAHA so after running and resting, we went over to mr jun kai's house to slack. and bus-ed home with rebecca:)

damn it, i'm kinda mad now.

and i ate this for dinner. look at the amount of broccoli. my mum made me eat that since she complains that i'm not eating rice-.-

kk bye/

WEIRD.

2009-10-19T11:41:00.004+08:00

nowadays people are weird. really.
not gonna say why but people are just weird.

OH running at bedok reservoir with jun kai, rebecca and andrew later on. maybe cheeyan and mr dota freak(yang kai) will be joining us too! and greatest news ever, we're running at 2 in the afternoon...i might just get heatstroke and sunburn but nevermind i will spam sunblock on my face:D

i almost had a heart attack yesterday when joni called me at 11.58pm to tell me something. HAHA.

well blog about running trip soon. i feel so bored now.

obsessed/

2009-10-18T18:09:00.005+08:00

heyo!

i can't think of a title so i guess 'obsessed' will do:) recently i'm obsessed with cooking healthy meals. mmhmm. well of cos i can't eat red meat which is kinda sad. i've been figuring out different types of method to cook chicken breast. so delicious, i love chicken breast. well yesterday i made chicken breast with spicy mushroom sauce and it was kinda successful. i won't say it's delicious but heavenly delicious. AH HA! nah just joking, at least it's edible alright? heh heh. oh wait, it's very healthy cos i baked the chicken instead of pan-frying it:D awesome!

supposed to run with my cousin today but somehow we didn't manage to:( but at least we both climbed the stairs and i skipped my life away at home. my right leg hurts now:( not sure if i can still run tomorrow with rebecca:/ wait NO NO NO, nothing's gonna stop me from running. i needa lose weight!!! i will run tomorrow, everyday and eat healthy. apples are my best dinner. so "delicious" please..

TODAY.
yep so carissa came over to eunos today:) she wanted to drag time before her church event starts. HAHA as a very kind friend, i accompanied her for at least 1hour. you must have loved me carissa chin chin. chatted and sorry for not asking if you wanna go my house for a drink or so cos my house was freaking messy and my mum was home. heh ps:) i know you don't mind. HAHA.

alright, my mum is drilling and hammering now and its freaking noisy-.- great, i am blasting music to my ears. mmmm i like my profile picture;D
meh i'm denying to myself. i still like you:/ haiz

well guess the post will end here. i wanna eat my apples alreadyyyyyyy, my dinner time.

2009-10-17T20:59:00.000+08:00

i'm glad that we cleared things up.
love you both always.

finally!

2009-10-16T11:57:00.004+08:00

HI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
finally an October post! exams are finally over so now its time to work on my project skinny. HAHA. yesterday was really enjoyable and it was my last best meal. meh i'm starting to diet and exercise today. supposed to run with rebecca but it's raining heavily at kallang:( WHAT A TIMING! but never mind there's always monday:) can't wait! i needa shed some weights off.

the moment i think of physics, my heart feels the pain. i really know how to do the questions like applying all the formulas but why the hell was i so careless to calculate the angle of incidence wrongly! omg i really hate myself for that and the whole chunk of question worth at least 10 marks. so if i got the first part wrong, i can forget about the rest and i got the first part wrong:( oh well it's over so i shall not think of it.

hmm...
i feel that we both are drifting apart. you may not notice it but i did. you're always with her but i don't mind that bcos we always hang out together. i thought this friendship probably would last but its not. i asked her to accompany me to the canteen but she didn't want to but when you asked her, she agreed without hesitation. that moment my heart felt a sharp pain but i got over it fast. i thought the 3 of us were really close friends but actually not. there are still secrets that you both don't share with me but i don't mind that till yesterday you both really hurt me. through my reaction you should be able to tell but i guess you took it lightly. you called me bastard bcos i didn't want to help you transfer money to another acc using my acc. have you ever thought why didn't i want to help you? i bet you didn't. i got my reasons and you don't bother asking and gave me that pissed off face and said "you damn bastard eh.." to add on, she called me a bastard too just bcos i didn't want to join the hari raya celebration today. by the time i reached, the celebration would be over but you guys are going out after that and asked me to join. we are friends for 3 years, you should know me better than anyone else. i don't really like to hang out and besides i feel that i don't click with anyone of you anymore. that's the reason why i didn't want to go. yesterday when i replied you guys "ya la ya la i damn bastard la" you probably should notice that you both had already broke my heart. well the 'bastard' part, you guy probably were joking or not but i felt that this friendship isn't like before. after really talking to carissa, rebecca and jasmin, i felt that they're the one who i can talk to freely and i felt much more comfortable when i'm with them. many times when you both went out, i wasn't included. oh well what can i say? i don't know i just felt that we're drifting apart. you won't read this though but i just wanna write out what i feel deep inside.

bye

TIRED.

2009-09-29T18:44:00.004+08:00

hihi.
its been super long since i blogged properly. right i should be mugging freaking hard in my room now since next week is the start of EOY but i can't seem to get my hands of the computer so here i am. today was very fruitful for me! i ran 5 rounds around the school field! 2rounds with everyone and 3 rounds with Rebecca and lily. Joni chicken out at the 3rd round. that loser:) i am freaking motivated to slim down. after exams i'm gonna work on my project skinny. haha i can't wait to run around kallang river with rebecca and maybe Joni that chicken. i ate little today cos i don't want to gain extra weights and i climbed the stairs home! i don't really have a choice actually because the lift was super packed and functions too slowly so i was kinda lazy to wait. i climbed all the way to 11 storey and i didn't die but my legs almost went jelly. i feel so weak but at least i exercised:) i wish i have this kinda determination everyday and i will be in shape in no time.

oh yeah i studied physics just now and a little bit of social studies. i kinda like physics but the formulas is driving me nuts but not as bad as ss. SS is totally killing me brain cells! all that i have memorise from last week till now were only sri lanka and northern Ireland and best of all i've not finish memorising-.- how amazing? i can just die for that particular paper but i'm working a little hard already so i guess i shall just hang on:)

okay recently i went nutty in class partly because of ___. okay i guess i went nuts because of___. and this is bad because now i can't concentrate! all i do now in the middle of the lesson is laugh/smile to myself in a very silly way. you won't want to see that psycho part of me:D

okay bye bye/ cya till exams are over:)